pretending to get sympathy just makes you look STUPID to *ANYONE* with a *BRAIN*.

fredrick took me to get a wax, then we went to cub foods to pick up some groceries and my medicine. i was thinking how incredibly sad it must be to stalk your own daughter/sister because you have nothing better to do with your OWN life- so it feels satisfying to read EVERYTHING they do because you think it's too much fuckin work to actually make something of YOURSELF. find a club or read a book (since i KNOW you CAN read now). i don't understand how someone can live with themselves pretending to be illiterate, so they don't have to work. don't you ever consider what other people think/say about you? i'm pretty sure i've got laughed at at least one or two times because my mom couldn't read. (deny that people are that mean ALL you want but i KNOW that part of you knows the truth and has to be ashamed) but consider if she really can't read (which i'm almost positive she can- i'm pretty sure she can't comprehend everything though- playing stupid all these years.. more than likely because my grandma enabled it outta guilt because she thought it was HER fault that she was born with nuchal chord complications)- someone HAS to be reading my blog and telling her what i say- at first i thought it might've been her boyfriend until my sister called me telling me she found him looking at child porn on the computer my mom inherited from my grandma.. but now i'm almost positive that it HAS to be the only other loser on this planet who actually cares what her big sissy does- my imbecile sister. i'm not sure if she's hoping to take my boyfriend away from me or threaten him like she did to zack and he hit on her- so it couldn't have been too scary. my boyfriend is too busy working and i'm positive that my mom is afraid of him since she's ignorant like that- which just attracted me to him MORE. so go ahead and stalk me until you find out his identity but i can guarantee you that he's not gonna hit on you or be remotely attracted to you. which actually makes me like him more. i highly doubt he's a chubby chaser like zack was. speaking of "chubby" though.. fredrick said to me today while i was in my place, trying to hold my pants up (so they wouldn't fall and show my panties), "YOU'RE STARTING TO LOSE WEIGHT! WHAT HAPPENED?! I USED TO HAVE YOU LIKE A GORDA!.. NOW YOU'RE LITTLE AGAIN! YOU DON'T EAT!" and i said, "heh.. yes i do. i think it's because i probably have my dad's metabolism. he was pretty skinny from the pictures i've seen of him and my mom was kinda chunky." then he said he was gonna feed me ugali like he always used to do and i told him that i looked up ugali on the internet a while ago and it said that people eat it to gain weight and i said that when i read that, i said to myself, "THAT'S WHAT FREDRICK GIVES ME ALL THE TIME!" so he said he's gonna start making it for me along with chicken and cheese. i just won't eat as much of it as i used to. most of it usually ends up in the toilet anyway.